I am shocked by how spastic I am lately. Not in the normal spaz way or high energy but in attention span. Yesterday I had some time and was going to write a post and then that flutters in my brain started so I was off on a different tangent. I am becoming more blonde as I get older!

SOOOO - BIG NEWS!! My birth brother is now a daddy!!! Does that make me an Aunt? That line is so fuzzy at the moment. Heck, that whole area is fuzzy. I suppose it doesn't NEED to be clear nor, now that I think about it, will it ever truely be clear. Little JR is adorable, of course he is a new born so he is a bit wrinkly in pictures and all but still adorable. I am also very happy for them and glad that things worked out. For a while there his wife was having some complications and was on bed rest.

I do have a bit of jealousy with all this... not towards anyone, just in general. I guess I thought at 33 I would be well on my way, having had all the kids I wanted by now. Funny how life just never turns out the way you expect it to. I am doing the "look at the bright side" thing now. If I had kids would I be able to fly off to Puerto Rico in March with my family? Not as likely and if I did it would be a lot to do for 4 days with kids.

Some days I want to mulligan my life - Alex, I will take starting over for 1000 please. What are unrealistic desires? You are the weakest link... Goodbye =)


~E